As 2017 comes to an end, I have been thinking about how I am going to close this chapter of my life and start the next one. I want to start 2018 happy, grateful and at peace so that’s how I am going to end 2017. I want to use this post as an opportunity to remind myself of everything that I am grateful for that has come to me in this past year and to let go of any negative emotions that I don’t want to bring with me into the new year.
Since I’m the kinda girl that saves the good stuff for last, I am going to talk about the negatives that I am letting go of this year first. One major thing that I want to leave behind in 2017 is my frustrations. Being chronically ill is naturally frustrating and being undiagnosed just makes it even worse. I really want to leave all my frustrations behind because there is nothing good that comes from them. Actually, I want to leave most of the negativity attached to my illness in 2017 and embrace all the inspiration that has come with it instead. While I know it is impossible to let go of all the negativity surrounding my chronic illness, I want to farewell most of it and start focusing on all the experience, knowledge, inspiration and empathy this illness has given me.
I have struggled a lot with my insecurities this past year and I have decided I need to let them go too. I want to go into 2018 feeling empowered, strong and beautiful. I believe that all those things are states of mind rather than physical qualities. I want to let go of all my ‘I’m not good enough’s and replace them with ‘I can do this’. I want to stop letting my insecurities get in the way of my life.
Looking back on 2017, I have had so many great moments with the people I love the most in this world. I’ve taken huge adult steps, I’ve travelled, I’ve practiced and preached self-love, I’ve learnt, I’ve gotten back into work and study and I’ve made some incredible memories.
The most significant event of this year was buying a house with my partner. It’s been a very stressful and challenging time for us, but it has also been such an incredible new adventure and I cannot wait to make millions of memories in the years to come in our very own little home. Justin and I celebrated our fourth anniversary this year and we also travelled overseas to Bali for the third time together. We’ve grown a lot this year and have had a lot of hard times that have made us even stronger. I know now, more than ever, that he is absolutely the man I want to spend the rest of my life with. It’s satisfying that I can end the year feeling so confident and happy with my relationship. I hope 2018 brings us some more great adventures.
I’ve shared some really touching moments with my friends and family this year also. I started the year not talking to my best friend and am ending it being closer than ever with them. I witnessed my beautiful baby sister being born into the world and heard her first cries. I watched one of my best friends walk down the aisle and marry the love of her life, standing by her side as a bridesmaid. I found out that another one of my best friends is having a baby and I got to meet two of my close friend’s beautiful baby boys. It’s crazy how much love and happiness one can experience in a year. I am so thankful for all of these beautiful people in my life.
For the most part of 2017 I was not working, other than from home. This past month I’ve gotten back into it though, working reception a few times a week. While this has been so physically challenging for me, it has been an absolute god send for my mental health. I am looking forward to continuing this in the new year and being able to contribute financially at home again. My online work opportunities have also been fantastic. I have been managing the social media of my old café job and developing a few local websites which helps to keep me busy, but it’s been a challenge with no home internet setup. I am so grateful that these beautiful people have given me such fantastic opportunities this year.
I’ve also been able to get back into my studies which is something that is so important to me. I am studying a degree of professional writing and publishing to one day help with my dream of becoming a writer! I am so glad I discovered online learning and very proud of myself for taking the risk of getting back into study. This semester I’ve been falling behind because of my internet situation but I am hoping I can work on this in the new year.
This year has also been a big learning curve for me. I am learning how to manage and cope with my symptoms a lot better than I was last year. Days that would have landed me in bed in agony I can now push through and do what I need to.
I am most thankful for you guys though. I can honestly say that blogging has saved my life this past year. My blogaversary was just last week so thank you all for supporting me throughout this past year. I’ve shared things I never thought I could and only good things have come from it. I’ve received the most touching emails and comments from some of you telling me how my writing has helped you and that for me makes me feel like I have a purpose. Just knowing that you are reading these posts means so much to me, so thank you. I am grateful for every single one of you.
So, with this long reflection, these are 10 of my goals for 2018:
- Be kind everyday
- Have more adventures with my partner and friends
- Fall in love with music again
- Push my boundaries a little more
- Love myself everyday
- Make plans to travel
- Enjoy life with my beautiful partner
- Be both inspired and inspirational to everyone I meet
- Grow my blog and write regularly
- Be fearless and not fearful
What are some of your new years resolutions? Tell me in the comments below.
Happy New Year beautiful people, thank you again for following my journey.