Reflecting Upon The Significance Of A Diagnosis

For the last 13 months, my focus has been on getting a diagnosis. Looking at the state of my health, it makes sense. I am sick and I don’t know why, therefore I need an answer; a diagnosis. Should getting a diagnosis be the most important thing I am working toward in my life right now? Well that’s what I am trying to figure out. Continue reading

10 Ways To Make Doctors’ Appointments More Productive When You Are Chronically Ill & Undiagnosed

Doctors’ appointments can be very daunting and overwhelming when you’re chronically ill and especially if you are undiagnosed like myself. It’s so easy to get caught up in the stress and frustration of doctors’ appointments and have them be unproductive and unpleasant. To avoid this however, I have come up with a list of 10 ways to make doctors’ appointments more productive when you are chronically ill and undiagnosed. Continue reading

A Letter To The Man Who Loves Me Despite My Chronic Illness

When I met you, you were a little lost. You didn’t know what you wanted to do or where you wanted to go. I, however, had it all worked out; the city move, the study, the career. The more I got to know you the more I realised that I wanted you above all other things. Continue reading

When Seeking A Diagnosis Feels Like Seeking Disapointment

Going to the doctors is easy; you call and make an appointment, you turn up and discuss your symptoms and then your doctor presents you with an answer and a solution. However this is not the case for people like me, people with rare and chronic conditions that are difficult to diagnose. Did we realise this the first few times we went to the doctors seeking answers? Of course not. We all walked into that office expecting to walk out with answers and treatment. Continue reading

Re-Evaluating My Identity

“Tell us about your self” was written in the empty box underneath my name. This question was one that I had never struggled with before, in fact if anything I struggled to write about myself within the word limits that capped my answer short every time. This question was now one that brought tears to my eyes and churned my stomach. Why is it so hard to answer this simple question? I feel torn between holding onto my old identity and accepting my new one, but I have no idea what my new identity is. Continue reading

My Life With Pain

Have you ever had an injury so bad that it kept you in bed for a week or so? One that came with non-stop pain and interfered with every element of your life, from your job to your personal hygiene? You may have broken a bone or had surgery. You feel as though it’s never going away, but you know it will. Give or take four to eight weeks, you will be healed and back to normal again. Imagine that this crippling pain didn’t go away though. Imagine if it clung on to you and made it self at home for an indefinite period of time. Continue reading

To Google Or Not To Google

Google doctor is understandably every doctor’s pet peeve but let’s be honest – we’ve all done it once or twice. It is mostly harmful to the ordinary patient seeking medical advice; however, my condition makes me a not-so-ordinary patient and I often struggle with the question – ‘to google, or not to google?’ Continue reading

6 Emotional Side Effects Of Being Undiagnosed

These six things are all connected and create a lot of difficulty for people living with an undiagnosed condition. I can’t tell you for sure that a diagnosis will fix these things but in a lot of ways a diagnosis would make them more bearable. Being sick is shitty, but being undiagnosed is worse. I battle all six of these emotions every day – some days it’s easier than others. It’s definitely not an easy journey but I’m learning to deal with these things as I go along. Continue reading