The Reason Why I Write

At first my writing was basically just a journal; a public diary that I vented and explored my thoughts on my new life and the struggles that came with it. It gradually developed into a sort of self-therapy for myself and I realised that writing was helping to keep me sane. It was helping me rediscover myself and my new purpose and was the only thing I was really working towards at the time. While I still do write for myself, the main reason why I write today is for you.

You either read my blogs for one of two reasons:

  • you know me (or know of me) and read because you’re concerned for me and care about my journey


  • You can relate to my journey in some way, either physically or mentally.

For those of you who read because they know and care about me, I write to you because I want to make you aware of the faults in our medical system. I want you to know that when your aunt’s friend’s daughter gets unexplainably sick that you need to tell them they’re not alone and you knew a girl once who went through a similar thing. I want you to believe your friend when they say they are so tired all of a sudden and the doctors can’t figure out why and not jump to the conclusion that they are lazy or exaggerating because, hey, all adults are tired to some extent, right? I want you to tell your friends or family members who are struggling with health issues that they will be ok, maybe not physically but mentally they can get through it. I want you to encourage them to think about things the way I do and even show them my blog and encourage them to read in case I can help them.

I want you to remember my story in case anything like this ever happens to you – I certainly hope it doesn’t, but you never know. If you wake up one day and your life gets turned upside-down like mine did, I want you to remember that one post you read years ago and go back here and re-read it. I want you to know that if anything like this ever does happen to you that you are not alone, not even for a second and I not only want you to read my blogs, but I want you to reach out to me personally.

For those of you who read because they can relate, I write to you because I know how scary it is to feel like there is no one else in the world that gets what you’re going through. While that is kind of true, no two stories are the same, there are plenty of others out there who sort of get it and experience similar hardships. Chronic (and mental) illnesses are so fucking isolating, it literally feels like the universe is against you at all times. This is not a solo battle though, there are so many of us fighting day in and day out. Some of us are fighting to function, others are fighting to be heard by doctors and all of us are fighting our own bodies daily.

I write to you because sometimes it’s nice to know you’re not the only one having a shit time. I also want you to know that not everything has to be shit, there are still small rainbows wherever you’re brave enough to look for them. When you’re going through what we are, it’s really difficult to see the positives because you sometimes don’t even want to bother to look for them. What’s the point of filtering through the shit stuff to only find a tiny gold flake in gallons of mud? Well the point is, the more you shift through the dirt, the more gold you’ll find and eventually you’ll have enough gold to make a ring.

I write because I want to make a difference in the lives of others, I want to help. If you read my blogs and even one sentence makes you think about your life from another perspective or one paragraph helps you deal with your circumstances or even one line just makes you smile, that’s why I write. Each week I am humbled by the emails and comments I get on my blog where you guys tell me how my writing applies to you or someone you know and how powerful it’s been for you to read. I save all of these messages and reread them to remind myself of why I write, so please don’t hesitate to share your story with me, I want to hear it.

Thank you guys so much for giving me plenty of reasons to keep doing what I am doing because for me there is no better feeling in the world than knowing that I am making a difference in your lives by trying to live my best life.

[END NOTE: This idea is explored differently in my older post ‘Why I Blog‘]

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